moving out of my mom’s today… it’s funny because I’ve been waiting 4 years for this moment. the problem? somewhere along the line … i grew attached to this place. all the photos & posters that were hung up in my room came with so many memories. when i took them down i felt like a piece of me died on the inside. but of course, I’m holding it all in because it’s what i wanted. i always thought that i would have something to come back to when i go off to college but that’s not the case here. my closet is empty, my wall is empty, EVERYTHING is empty.

i suck at saying goodbyes but i guess this is goodbye.

ffinite:

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Winnie the Pooh characters representing mental disorders.

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About 4 years ago, I swore that I’d never be caught dead in a dress/skirt. Funny … about a quarter of my closet is currently filled with dresses! boy have I changed so much. I guess it is part of the figuring-out-who-i-am phase? :)  

for the past few years, i really dreaded mother’s day. yeah, i should appreciate you because of everything your provide for me & i should be thankful that i have a mom but it’s really hard. recently, you’ve started to give up on me and you told me you were done with me. it makes me wish bad things upon you but at the same time, i wish you the best. sometimes, i don’t even want to be near you because you make it so difficult to love you but i must give you some credit. if it weren’t for you, i wouldn’t be here today & i probably wouldn’t be such a strong person. you put me through so much but i still overcome them eventually. thank you for that.

i have all this anger toward you but i still managed to tell you “happy mother’s day” with a smile on my face. we never tell each other i love you but i know that feeling is there somewhere. i honestly do love you mom. 

&& i hope one day that i can get a genuine hug from you and be able to hear you say the words i love you because i can’t remember the last time we did that. 

i honestly can’t complain about my life. yeah, things are rough right now but it’s whatever. i can’t really change the things that already happened.

current quote in my head: “don’t let the things you want make you forget about the things you already have”

today, i went to school for two hours and took a test. yay! then, i hung out with jenny<3 she’s a lifesaver. ate some quesdillas with her && she basically helped me draw my living art show project. :)

after that, i went to a youth group house hold & it was one of the best decisions i made all week. i love seeing that family. they make me forget about bad things haha. i thought that was the end of my day but we all went to the park afterwards. i helped my friends boyfriend ask her to prom! cutest thing ever! he spelled out prom with these cute fake candles and had flowers and wore a cute dress shirt thing with a bow tie! she had no idea what she was walking into! haha, but she was speechless & it was so adorable. i love being a part of moments like that.

grr, one more week of actual school and i’m done with high school. i’m not even sure how i feel about that but i guess i can say that i’m excited…. excited to step out into the real world without people holding my hand :)

lemonvip:

Reasons why I love Taeyang: #07 his killer body.

As far as I recall, I’ve never met a man who oozes male pheromones yet smiles with such innocence before. […] What made him the sexy icon was very clear: his sensual voice and killer body that show what “groove” is all about. - ELLE Magazine [x]

6/9 pictures of shirtless Taeyang ♥☼ requested by Hyeminah

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I hate the fact that when good things happen to me … something bad comes right after. the only thing that’s different this time is that i feel like everything is wrong. i feel sick to my stomach (literally). i left school and slept for a few hours. then i woke up and puked my guts out && my back is KILLING me. i can’t stop crying. i can’t stop thinking. i feel so miserable. this cannot be happening right now. there’s just so much going on and this is going to be a huge setback. FML :(

foreverandneverever:

Memmehmehmehmeh. THIS MAN.

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I’m so glad I decided to go to prom last night :)

Desiree helped me put my sticky boobs on. yup, that’s a true best friend right there.

I surprised Jenny! she had absolutely NO IDEA that i was going. (no one really did) IT WAS GREAT. haha her reaction made everything worth it!

our bus had no AC and broke so we were stuck on the side of the freeway for a few minutes … then, Michelle got really sick so i took care of her <3 anything for my best friend! she left me though which made me pretty bummed… :( at least we got a few pictures! she’s beautiful!

my braces were off, i dropped a few pounds, && i felt super pretty last night. a few people came up to me, gave me a hug and straight up said “you look beautiful” :) i was so happy :’)

there was one point where i had a moment with someone that i miss. i wasn’t sure if i wanted to dance with him because i’m still not over him. we danced & we had a good time but now what? is he really going to let it go … again?

after prom i went to denny’s with stephanie. i am SO GLAD that i really got to know her this year. it’s amazing how much you can have in common with someone!

before going home, i took a little detour to hang out and share some laughs with some friends (met new people too). they’re crazy but i love them <3

i made good choices & i’m so thankful (:

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nakedthyself:

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